I admit that I don't post so many blogs here. Out of habit, I post on myspace. A habit I'm looking to change, in all honesty. I always try to start conversations, and even though I get a few comments, no one ever wants to converse.
Not that I have the worlds greatest conversation starters, but at least I would think that there are things to go off of. I guess it's just me, I'm frustrated these days. Serves me right for trying to expand my horizons I suppose.
I've been making scarves. Now this is something I talk about because I'm proud of, not something I'm telling you about to comment on. (Really. :) ) Where I work, is doing a collection for the homeless shelter. One day, I was looking at my bin of yarn, and it occurred to me that I could do something for them. I don't have a lot of money, but I have been thinking I needed to contribute somewhere. I've got almost 35 done. And there are so many colors, because now I also have this addiction to buy yarn when I have $$. I can honestly say though, that the scarf project will be going on the back burner for awhile though. I have to hand them in on the 18th. And I have 35 scarves I need to tuck the ends of the yarn in yet. I had a goal of 50, but I'm not going to kill myself to do it, but I think I will get at least 40 done. And who knows, there's still a week left .... Wish me luck!
I've got other crocheting projects I'd like to embark on. Ann and AJ are having a baby boy, and I want to make them a baby blanket. Kellie's due at the end of February, and I want to make her one too. And then... I'd really, really like to make one for Colleen. She said something when she seen the one I made Lindsey, about having one to put in her daughter's hope chest. So I'd really like to do that for her. Because she wouldn't expect it.
She's awesome, that lady. One of the most amazing people I've ever met. It's rare that I can say that I've met someone that makes my life brighter by just being in it, but she's one of those kinds of people. Never a negative thing to say, and can turn anything positive. I want to be more like her. I really, truly do.
One thing about that though, I'll never be with my headbanging ways. But all the other ways, I sure can be! :)
Speaking of headbanging, I have quite the busy month ahead of me! :)
This month, well, next week actually, I'm meeting my friend Colette in Las Vegas. We're going to see Papa Roach at the Hard Rock. (Yay!) For those just meeting me, after Cruefest this summer, I had quite the obsession with Jacoby Shaddix (their singer). The trip was a complete fluke. I was talking to Colette, joking, and some how... we're going to Vegas now!
That's how most of our road trips came about though, one suggests. The other is all about it. So much, that both of us are so excited about it, that the only way to shut up about it, is just to go. That's how I've seen half the country, and how I ended up in Canada.
I'm really looking forward to that.
Also coming up...
Next month, Sevendust/Disturbed. That's January 21. I have to laugh, because I found out about that show when Kristian called me up and told me about it.
The really awesome thing about that one, I got to return the favor. Saving Abel/Papa Roach/Buckcherry/Avenged Sevenfold. January 28.
In all honesty, I'm very glad to be a part of the second show. I'm excited about the first one, don't get me wrong. It's just we'd been talking about Avenged for. ... well, since I've been talking to her! I used to LOVE Buckcherry. So much that I chased them all over the country. But I'm more excited to see Avenged. (I know there's a shorter way to write it, but I'm not the fan she is. Sorry, Kristian!)
And then we have Adele in there too. But she's going to be mellow. So mellow. It kind of makes me laugh to think how she's in the middle of those two.
For awhile there, I felt like I had stepped out of my body, and was just going through the motions. I was not feeling like myself by any means. But in the last month or so, I've been feeling more like me than I have in years. I can't begin to tell you how I'm so happy to be getting that back. I've missed all of these things about me. I hated being so down all the time, and being so ... negative. I hated that I hadn't felt like myself in YEARS.
But it seems to be coming back, and this makes me so happy! Not that I'm there, by any means, but ... I'm getting there. My love of music's coming back. I love concerts. More than anything else in the world, I love concerts. And for a long time, that had left. I know I blame the music scene I was involved in when I lived in Milwaukee, because there were some nasty people I'd been involved with. And I held onto that for much too long.
I didn't think I'd ever get this back, and it makes me feel ... so much better that it's back. I honestly can tell you that there's no way I'd ever be able to do it like I used to. In the car every weekend, going somewhere, to see someone. But... I'll enjoy what comes to me, that much I'll tell you. :) And Vegas isn't just about a concert. It's about seeing my best friend. We haven't hung out for a while, and ... I think we both need that. However, I have no desire to go to a club like she does! Two nights there, and that's not how I want to spend one of them.
Tomorrow's going to be an interesting day. Full moon. And I'm going to see that guy's band that's mentioned in my other blogs. The only part of the night I'm looking forward to is hanging out with my new friend. But I'm not looking forward to the rest. Which hopefully will end up meaning it's a great night. But the more I think about it, the more paranoid I'm getting. It's for the Utah Food Bank, and it occurred to me, that there are 2 men right off the bat there that are complete assholes, and just might start making comments when they see a girl my size come in. And if they do, that's just going to RIP my heart out. Not to mention, all the other drunk people I'll be around.
I'm just nervous now. It's my first night out to a bar since I've been here. To see smaller bands. I haven't done this since Milwaukee. And ... I'm worried. I'm a wussy in so many ways now, you have no idea.
Wish me luck, I am really sure I'm going to need it.
With that being said, it's time for me to get ready for work. See you tomorrow, and thanks for reading.
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